Eternal Sunshine

I’m reluctant to post this. Read at your own risk…

1. 

I still love you. But my posts about you vary depending on my mood…but I’ll try to keep this as neutral as possible. 

Why can’t you just love me damn it…life would be so much easier lol. Sometimes I say I’ve given you up for Lent — “Yes, I’ve given up ALL forms of meat!” But it’s easier to resist chicken than it is not talking to you…

It’s been the epitome of a roller coaster relationship but I guess I’m glad it was with you…I wonder what the future holds for us. And I want your family to love me again too wahh. 

2. I’m sorry that things ended the way they did…I would have loved to stay friends but I guess you have other plans in mind. I still think you were overly sensitive, over dramatic, and immature…but hopefully you’ll come around eventually. Or not…

3.

You annoy the shit out of me. You make me look like a damn fool; things might be different where you come from but around here we believe in team work and communication. I’ve been looking forward to this for three years and you’ve ruined it…I wonder if you know how domineering and irritating you are to all of us. Did you know that we have a separate message thread just to rage about you…We’ve all resorted to learned helplessness. 

4. I hate you for letting me screw up everything that mattered. I don’t know what I ever saw in you?

5. You missed your window of opportunity. “I’ll ask you out when you’re 18.” Nope. Too late.

6. I don’t appreciate being lied to, especially from close friends/ people I trust. I made a fool of myself defending your so-called honor and now I’m defending his instead…are you ever gonna fess up? And plus you’re four or five years older than me and most of the time I feel more mature and intelligent than you…no offense…

7. Maybe I could have changed your life, if you let me in. But you don’t let anybody in. 

8. I don’t get what your deal is. I can’t tell if people like you or not. You’ve caused me so much grief and I don’t think you’re even aware of it. Funny how I learned about a sorority and thought, “Hmm this looks pretty cool.” And the next thing I know you’re a sister in it…I tried to befriend you but there was too much tension. I still don’t get it but I still don’t like it. 

9. Ignorant racist cunts…this is directed toward a group of people. And especially to one person in particular: you act like such a sweet person but you are so irking and you made a big mistake. 

10. I aspire to be to other people what you are to me. I wish we were closer…if you only knew the profound impact you have on me and what an inspiration you are to me (so cheesy).